#29 Failure to Launch

I’ve been thinking about this for awhile.

I’m 41,don’t have a college degree (and a ton of debt trying to get one),the longest I have ever held a job is 5 years,I have no savings,I have no wealth,I really haven’t done anything with my life.

I identify with the failure to launch idea. I have so many different interests. That trying to narrow down and focus on just one not only feels impossible,the very idea is terrifying in its own way.

I think for some of us being told as children that we can grow up and be anything we want is just way to many options. Like myself with so many varying degrees of interest,how can you narrow it down. The standard college education format doesn’t really work. There is so much that I would like to study that the given format at the majority of schools for degree progress does not work. I feel that it hinders and holds me back.

I think for others that could be given the label is probably the same reason.

While part of me wants to settle down on a few acres of land and farm just to take care of myself.

The other part of me wants to travel the earth and research and write about music,plants and animals documenting it all. While also creating fictional worlds,stories and music of my own.

How do I create an education that will give me the knowledge and skills to do so without spending a fortune in money I don’t have and a fortune in whatever time I have left on earth and be able to survive?

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#28 The Year of 42.

I realized on my birthday that is was not me becoming 41 but actually me COMPLETING/FINISHING 41 years of life. Gaining enough experience to complete level 41 and star progression on level 42.

I am now 17 days into my 42nd year of life.(at the time I began writing this)

And if anyone has read DouglasAdams Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy knows 42 is the Ultimate Answer to Life,Universe, and Everything. 

As a Dudeist,this makes sense.

42= Don’t Panic/Take It Easy Man

42= I know where my towel is.

42= Abide.

42= Be in the now,it is the only time I to work witg. The past doesn’t exit except as a flawed memory in our minds and the future is always becoming the new NOW.

42=I have the collected knowledge of the whole world in my pocket at all times. If I don’t know something I can look it up. Much like the actual Hitchhikers Guide described in the books. 

42=If I cannot Abide something but I cannot change it,Abide until I can make the change. 

42=I have accepted myself as best as I can.

42=I have chosen/been given a path for my life and I am following it. 

42=My path is not for everyone,it is for me. If someone has a similar path and we can vibe with each other cool. If not also cool.

The Year of 42. 

It is going to be interesting.

Take it easy pet a cat.

The Reverend Mad Cat Steve.

#27 Once More With the Sun

Well​ my birthday is coming up again at the time I begin this writing it is 3 days away.

Time again to sit in retrospection and recap my year. Take stock of how I have developed.

Well since last year. I have quit two jobs, lost one,moved twice and lost my furry life partner. Battled my depression over Christmas and New Years. That all happened over the course of 9 months.

In March. I chose to leave a bad living situation and relocate over a thousand miles away. I may still be having trouble finding steady work but the positives outweigh the negatives.

Positives

  1. I’ve lost weight.
  2. I’ve become physically healthier than I have been in a long time.
  3. Found my spiritual connection to the world.
  4. Enrolled in school
  5. Determined my values
  6. Determined my short and long-term goals.
  7. Became a Dudeist Preist.
  8. I’m seeing someone,she’s pretty cool.
  9. I’m off my meds.
  10. Dealing with my anxiety better.

Negatives

  1. Had 4 pretty bad anxiety attacks.
  2. Still don’t have a steady job.

That’s all just off the top of my head.

I’m in a transitory phase in my life.

Becoming Reverend Hersh and discovering who this dude is.

Taking it easy. The Dudeist Way is the best change for me. Now I just tell myself this and it helps my anxiety attacks go away.

I’ve had so many positive experiences. 

Made new friends CJ an older (black) man who’s a veteran resembles Danny Glover but reminds me of Morgan Freeman, Roswell my friend of Spaniard descent who looks Mexican even though he isn’t,the girl I am seeing with her dark ebony skin and lively attitude she helps keep me grounded and my success coach without that leadership class I would still have no idea where I am headed with my life.  And a host of other people have contributed to my growth as a man in this world. All the people online who I may never get to meet in person from those that have been around for awhile to my newly added fellow Dudeists.

My personal development into a better person than I even thought possible. None of it would have happened if I hadn’t taken the risk and left town​. The best short notice decision I have ever made. 

Next year is the year of 42. 

Don’t Panic,Take It Easy,Yes-I know where my towel is and Life Is Just a Ride.

So thank you all for being a part of this journey that is my life. 

We are currently in the prologue of a new book for me. So not only am I defining who I am. I am also deciding who gets to stay and who gets unfortunately left behind. 

Come abide with me. 

Namaste my brothers and sisters Namaste.

The Reverend.

The Madman Without A Cat.

#26 Vision for the future.

A follow-up to the last post. 

Again super busy with school, trying to find a place to live, and steady work.

But my vision for my future is clear.

My Vision

My personal life  Vision is to improve the well-being of all felines from the common house cat to large predatory cats. To be an advocate for large predatory cat conservation efforts. Being the public voice of feline and dude relationships. I plan to establish the First Temple of the Crazy Cat Dude,which would be the first physical Church of the Latter-Day Dude. A peaceful site where cats who have been long awaiting adoption due to age or health problems can live out their nine lives happily cared for. I desire to become physically fit so I may continue my vision for all feline kind through the rest of my days. 

The Reverend

The Madman Without A Cat.

#25 Leadership,Values,Mission

In the past weeks,I have been super busy.

Enrolling in school, getting a job and taking an intensive 2 week Leadership program. 

I now finally have a free moment. 

While college and work were very important the Leadership class has had then most impact on my life. 

Walking into it I didn’t really known what I was getting myself into. I am glad that I did. The class forced me to actually do things I had been meaning to do for a long time. 

Being figuring out my Core Values, my Goals and Objectives for my life,what is my life’s Mission and my Vision for my future.

While I did a very specific version just for the class. Doing these things gave me the tools to know how and feel empowered. 

While we narrowed down to 5 core values in class,I feel better with 10.

So I’ll list them in order of importance 

My Core Values are

1. Compassion 

2. Wisdom

3. Humor

4. Positive Attitude 

5. Feline Well-Being

6. Simplicity 

7. Leadership 

8. Leisure 

9. Fitness 

10. Change

My Mission 

Is to create a Cat Sanctuary and the first physical Church of the Latter-Day Dude and for that place wherever it may be located to be known as The Temple of the Crazy Cat Dude. Where compassion for all felines no matter their status of health. To be an advocate of feline adoption, care and quality of life. To be an advocate for large predatory felines preservation. To be know as Reverend Crazy Cat Doctor Dude who will treat your feline companion as if they were one of his own. 

So I chose now to ignore those things that hinder my growth into that being.

I thank my Mentor/Success Coach who taught this class for giving me the tools and the fire to actually do these and finally finding my purpose in life. 

Namaste my brothers and sisters Namaste. 

The Reverend 

The Madman Without A Cat 

#24 Taking It Easy at The Ocean and Beach.

After getting started towards school over the weekend and some more research towards housing.

 I decided that Monday was adventure day.

Today’s adventure marks a milestone in my life.  

I visited ocean and beach for the first time ever here. Sand between my toes and waded out to my knees in the water. I still don’t know how to swim so,can’t go much further. It was awesome though…I may have to learn how to swim finally. 

It was quite and peaceful. The sound of the waves and the breeze made me forget it was in the mid 80s today. 

Once things get settled I may just have to schedule regular beach time.

May have to be a different one though,this one isn’t pet friendly. 

Once I finally got back this evening got my acceptance emails from the College. 

Now I am officially starting school to become a Veterinary Technician at first. 

Then after I get the degree and work a year or two go back and get my full Veterinary Medicine Bachelors. 

That’s the plan right now.

May try to squeeze in becoming a Personal Trainer in there too.

Anyway goodnight.

Namaste my brothers and sisters,Namaste. 

The Reverend. 

The Madman Without A Cat.

#23 Happy Take it Easyster, Choices, 

On this day we remember to take easy for the rest of the year. Happy Take it Easyster.

I hope everyone is doing well.

I know I am. 

I made the decision to leave on short notice. I am happy with the choice I made. 

Rather than stay in the bad living situation I was in, I chose to leave and (big reveal) be homeless in a new warmer and beautiful area. Do not worry though,I got myself into a homeless shelter and program the day I arrived. I have a place to sleep at night,get a shower once a day and a meal once a day. There are other places to get a free meal every day. 

I am still job hunting but I  know the right opportunity will come along and everything will be cool.

I am mentally healthier and happier than I ever was back home. I am becoming physically better too,walking several miles a day.

I have made some new friends. How long will we be so I don’t not know?

This is the best choice I have ever made in my life. 

So much opportunity lies ahead and it excites me. 

This new version of me is an interesting individual.

I am still getting to know him. 

I like him though. 

I left for my own mental,spiritual and physical well-being. 

I am a self ordained Reverend now. Being a Dudeist has been a great help in easing my anxiety levels.

I’m going to end here though,this was meant to be posted on Sunday by life got busy. 

Namaste my brothers and sisters,Namaste. 

The Reverend

The Madman Without a Cat.