I just saw my psychiatrist on Thursday.
Told him about how I have been off my medications for about 2 months now.
We agreed that I could stay off of them but I could easily call to get a new script if I felt the need.
It is a little rougher without.
I understand the artificial edge the meds gave me.
I have better coping skills than I did.
I am in adjustment still to coping without the edge the meds gave me.
I am writing here to keep self aware of my mental state.
I have been living,sometimes barely surviving with mental illness since I was a toddler.
I only finally sought treatment 3 and a half years ago. After a severe mental breakdown.
Being this psychology aware of myself is still a relatively new thing for me.
I was not managing at all before.
Yes some rough moments recently.
I just speak out now,instead of bottling it up and letting it consume me.
My illness is part of me.
It is not me.
It does not define who I am.
I won’t let it.
I may be A Madman Without a Cat.
I am the coolest,sincerist,most sensitive, blunt,loyal,loving,magickal and positive Madman you will ever meet.