I don’t know what is happening in my life? Everything is falling apart. I have been forced to stay here by my own stupid decisions. Those same decisions mean I am flat broke right now.
Job hunting has yet to pan out. I am still looking.
Every day bleeds into the next so much that I forget what day it is. Next thing I know another week has ended.
I understand that I am depressed because of all this. I would rather sleep than get up and face another repeated day of nothing. I am just mentally, physically and spiritually worn out.
It is hard to stay and be positive when life is constantly throwing negative at you.
I am thankful to have a roof over my head and some food in my stomach at the moment.
The biggest problem with no money now is if a job interview isn’t actually here in town, I have no way to get to the interview.
These weeks have just brought me low.
Something needs to happen. I don’t know what? Things need to get better.
I feel disconnected from life.
I am just writing to keep abreast of my own mental state.
I am low. I just don’t know what to do. I am lost.